Life has just been so TIRING lately, and going back over “Syncope” has been surprising… both strange and refreshing.
I’ve never been in a position like this. Do all creative authors reread their work after a long period and think, “Man, this is fecking weird“? [scratches head]
Well, I’ve certainly written a lot of other technical papers and whatnot, but those are things based on experiments, data, research, and other “solid” things not dependent on artful craft to get a point across. And certainly no dialogue.
I had mixed feelings while rereading. ^^ On one hand, I was astonished that I managed to craft a poetic piece of text here and there that accurately conveyed my own beliefs and feelings about the series’ characters. There’s that momentary swell of pride. On the other hand, the sheer weirdness of thinking “I can’t believe I wrote this” took hold more than half the time. But that was in neither a good nor bad way. (It’s hard to describe!)
In any case, I need another plan of action to get back into the writing game. (This could be a bad idea, actually, because I’m supposed to be busier than usual. But doesn’t your head just shut down after a while of “OMGcan’ttakeanymoreofthis”? Maybe I just need a break.)
Here are some interesting things that stuck out to me upon rereading:
- The paragraph in Chapter 1.4 beginning with “In the end, they came to a better understanding” is my least favorite section ever. Actually, it just pisses me off, and I don’t know what to do about it precisely. I’m tempted to write an omake about that point (Yukino and Natsuki); I might even remove the entire flashback to avoid the awkwardness.
- I need to get rid of more “adjective-girl” appellations, but using only names could get annoying, too.
- Despite all the angstful pain the dialogue caused me, my favorite parts of “Syncope” so far are: Natsuki-Mai talky bits (1.3), Shizuru-Mai talky and Shizuru-Natsuki flashback (1.6), Natsuki’s nightmare and Nao-Mai-Natsuki talky (1.7), Shizuru-Reito talky (1.9), and both omake. Interesting.
Things to do:
- Review Mai-HiME (somehow)
- Go over paper version “Syncope” and compare to LJ notes/comments and make final edits (source of review)
- Review outline and begin brainstorming again
- Attach research items to the outline (I hadn’t done this before, and I think it’ll be easier this way)
- Start small: omake are easier to write because I don’t have to keep track of too much plot, so it might be better to start out with one.
No, there’s absolutely no timeline at this point. ^_^;